Mack, in our life, we all made mistakes. Some are serious and irrecoverable because we cannot change history. What we can do is present and hopefully future not going to happen again. Rather than blame ourselves, we come to Jesus and ask Him for forgiveness. Try hard not to repeat the same mistake. We don't leave you alone because we concern about you. Never give up! We have to be thankful for what we have and share love to others. Best Regards